I’m not really sure how to start this, all I know is that this is a collection of my thoughts and feelings at the moment. I’m not sure if these feelings are just and if these thoughts have substance; in fact all this is, is me rambling…

So I’ve been thinking quite a bit lately about where my life is right now and I couldn’t be more grateful. However, it seems that most recently a cloud has come to cast a shadow in the bright sunny-day that is my life. This cloud hasn’t bugged me at all, but it’s effects seem to be starting to take their toll.

I had found a steady job that pays well, but I didn’t get the job because of a failed drug test for a drug I had never taken. They refused to let me take another one. O well. To add to that, my parents are having constant arguments and are soon to be splitting. It’s worse that I have to choose a side though. These events are what is making up the cloud.

But the cloud isn’t bugging me. I’m optimistic. I know it will pass and everything will soon reach equilibrium. However, all this negative energy is taking it’s toll on my psyche. I’m becoming more isolated, more quiet, more protective. It’s left me with time to think, time to dream, time to decide what road to take.

I’ve thought a lot about this past year so far. In one year I started photography, shot motocross, interned at BOXeight, left BOXeight, and made new friends and even lost old friends.

Which leads me to friends. What makes a good friend? Is it what they do for you? Is it what friends they have? Is it what they have? The common answer would be “a good friend is someone who is there for you”. I think it’s more than that. I think a good friendship is solely based on a mutual respect for oneanother. Frankly I seen too many “friends” “be there” for oneanother then go betray them.

I’ve been fortunate to be able to find good friends in LA. LA friendships are usually based on “what can you do for me.”

In the end I am so thankful for what has happened in my life so far and couldn’t be more grateful. All I can do is keep doing what I’m doing and see where this road takes me. It’s gone from me doing simple graphic design work to shooting motocross to shooting bands and portraits. I am excited for the future and for me to really show my colors with photography. I just need to stop saying I’m going to do it and finally just do it.

We’ll see where this goes. I’m stoked!

:) :)